I wanted to create a different blog that is very private. Here I will discuss things that I don't want to share with everyone else. I don't know how much I will write here but I am starting today. Today in church I realized something important that I have never considered before. I never realized how much I am grateful for the atonement. I am also grateful for the power of forgiveness. I sometimes have a really hard dealing with my mom. The last couple of weeks have been tough. She has been planning a craft sale. At first it started with one of her friends and then they got in a fight. Then she was doing it with my step sister Kristy (big mistake). Then they got in a fight so here I am stuck in the middle. My mom was very angry with me for not wanting to get involved in all the reasons she was fighting with everyone. HONESTLY, I am so sick of the fighting. She thrives on it. I will not deal with it. If she wants to do it, that is great but I won't be involved. That is where the atonement comes in for me. When she gets all worked up and mad the best thing for me to do is just step back. What I want to do is just tell her off and tell her to leave us alone until she can learn to control her anger. That won't work with her because she won't learn to control it. Fighting back is what she wants you to do and I chose not to engage in that. Life is too short to fight so I just choose to forgive her every single time she is rude to me or the kids and just take her and her attitude with a grain of salt. Sadly she is not one of my favorite people to hang out with but I can't change her, I can only change myself. Oh well!